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[25 May 2004|07:09pm] [o] Basics [o] [x] Name: Nik [x] Real Name: Nicole [x] Birthday: July 29, 1988 [x] Sex: female [x] Eye Color: Blue [x] Hair Color: Brownish [x] Height: 4'11 [x] Occupation: dunkin donuts....ugh [x] Marital Status: matthew <3 [o] Thinkers [o] [x] Favorite Song: "if i die" [x] Age of De-Virginization: 15 (what a slut) [x] One True Friend: MANDA and meg [x] A Song Containing Your Name: ? [x] Your Wedding Song: ? [x] Best Day of Your Life: hmmm idk...maybe the day after newyears eve [o] Personal [o] [x] Have You Ever Been In Love? yup! [x] Did You Ever Think You Were? not untill now [x] Shortset Relationship: 1 week [x] Longest: 6 months and still going [x] Number of People You Had Sex With: one and only one [x] What Attracts You To Guys/Girls: eyes/hair..... [x] Your Best Quality: sense of humor [x] Your Worst Quality: to many to write down [o] Habits [o] [x] Smoking: NO WAY [x] Drinking: not really anymore [x] Drugs of Any Kind: not at all [x] Oral Fixation: lol [x] Staring Problem: sometimes [x] Bite your Nails: nope [x] Chew With Your Mouth Open: nope [o] Future Plans [o] [x] Do You Want To Get Married? yes [x] Do You Want Kids? yeah [x] What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up? rich [x] Where Would You Like to Move? California [x] What Would You Like Your Spouces Occupation To Be? anythign with alot of money [x] What Would You Like your Future Income to be? alot [o] The Last. . . [o] [x] Song You Listened to: [x] Person You Talked To: matt [x] Person You Hung Out With: matt [x] Person You Missed: MANDA [x] Time You Cried: 5 mins ago lol [x] Time You Really Had Fun: last time i was with manda [x] Time You Showered: thursday [x] Book You Read: idk [x] Movie You Watched: something about mary [o] The End [o] if i die

[23 May 2004|06:12pm] so yeah this weekend was a little hecktick but good..... friday um me and matts 6 months.....woot-woot......um went shopping with manda....got a cute skirt, um a bra and shoes...then me and manda got our nails done...then matt came over.....so much for a our plans to go out :)....lol saturday...um went to work till 12....then got dressed at matts (yeah thats right no shower.....what up whicskanky kid!)then we went to his show at krome... by the way was amazing!ummm.... then we went to a hotel to get ready....and it was 100 fucking degreese....so yeah then to his cousins graduation...not to exciting but thats ok....then i went home... and i had fucking work this morning...i thought i was going to die...but it actually wasnt that bad....so then we picked matt up and we went swimming im going to hangout with my awesome boyfriend later dudes...... nik 1 won’t be so close to me | if i die

[17 May 2004|06:22pm] hm so yeah my weekend was ok i guess..... friday was supose to go to the mall with just tony and matt....but ev decided tyo come......so i got 0 shopping done! and ev bitched about bri the whole time....and when he wasnt doing that he was bitching with her on the phone.....aw how cute.....wow i love my boyfriend lol .....oh and i got really cure white 0 earings saturday...worked.....manda came over......then matts mom brought us to the show in allendale.....hungout for a bit......they played....they were fucking amazing.......ill post pics soon...maybe....:)......then all this shit happened because of this certain jerk off that im not fond of.....once again i love my boyfriend...........then tony drove me home sunday worked......then i hungout at matts till like 10.........wow what an awesome day.....once again i love my boyfriend.....lol and today school.....got to wear my new white skirt.....and then to the shop with matt so yeah things with me and matt have been going really good.....im happy.... wow every is so unhappy......but you know what i finally realized that my lie is so good.....i could have it so much worse.....ok well later..... nik 4 won’t be so close to me | if i die

[14 May 2004|03:09pm] hey well yesterday was pretty good.....um went to work at 4....yeah i love how i did ALL the work......its fucking bullshit but w/e.....and then i went to matts till like 10ish...... well lets just say today could have been better....... so yeah got my new white zip up the one im in love with that i wanted for SO long....and yeah didnt get ANYTHING on it....untill fucking jeff marlo fucking put pencil on it....what would you want  to do that...please tell me i would love to know?!!? ugh....so yeah i love how people say one thing....then lie to me about it.....and my b/f DOES bealive me....so please try not to fuck up our relationship thanks i apreciate it........because were happy.....its just fucked up why you would even do that..........please tell me why you would even say something like that....because i WOULD REALLY LIKE TO FUCKNIG KNOW........now that everyones wondering what the fuck im talking about this is what happened: my boyfriend heard from someone that i got drunk at a party and cheeted on him (yet im with him almost every day....or i call him 247 to tell him where i am.......if anything hes a party NOT ME.....i have no fucking life....come on)  so then i asked the person who was the starter of this......and they told me TO MY FACE that they were talking about me with someone else and how matt and me have been going out for so long....and idk a bunch of other shit......but for some reason i dont think thats what really happened....so now 3 girls dont belive me and think i did it because of the one person who said something.........wow thats so fucked up....sorry if you didnt understand that.......   sorry i had to let that out..........so yeah....so today me matt and tony are going to the mall.....i have to buy them taco bell though....lol.....later........ nik 2 won’t be so close to me | if i die

heartwork <3 [12 May 2004|06:11pm] today was pretty good.... it was really hot out so i got to wear shorts...... got a new skirt :)......yay got some diet snapple talked to shawn and mike...and it remined me of the summer last year....but mike was in a bad mood so w/e so i talked to shawn....wow that kid is so awesome....i miss him i miss rich too....i havnt talked to him in so long....maybe ill give him a call.....hes prob to cool for me now anyway..... yeah and i rained a whole lot..... now im being a cool kid and crying.......awesome!....later..... nik this was going to be a good update untill i got upset lol if i die

[11 May 2004|08:13pm] lastnights thunderstorm=amazing......i seriously havnt seen a thunderstorm SO awesome in a long ass time....so yeah...besides the fact that it kept me up all night it was freaking awesome.... and today was pretty dern good...... got to wear my skirt :).... school= sucks went to the shop with matt after school.... hes a jerkoff and didnt come over..... went running... jumped in the pool with my clothes on :)..... heartworks demo is done=awesome...so yeah.... show in allendale on saturday....later bitches... nik if i die

[10 May 2004|04:23pm] hey well i havnt updated since what thursday....not like i need to.....my lifes boring.... hmmm friday me and matt hungout.....went swimming...um then we were supose to go out but that didnt happen......so we rentd movies and got some food....then we went home......um went swimming at night it was really freaking cold......then we made somores soo good...then movies and i feel asleep on the couch :)..... the saturday....had fucking work till 2....then ran home showered....picked up bri and manda and went to the mall got a bunch of clothes...including my 70's shirt :) lol then cam home to babysit.....yeah they were liek yeah we will be home at 11 latest....they didnt fucking get home till 1:30......ugh i was so pissed...concidering i had work at 6 the next day....grrr.... then sunday after work i got matts mom her mothersday gift....and i gave my om hers as well (queer eye for the straight guy soundtrack :) fucking awesome)..um then we just hungout....then my g-parents came over...and yeah......then i went to sleep.. and today was fucking gay...oh well.....lol......later.... nik 2 won’t be so close to me | if i die

[06 May 2004|09:51pm] SHOWS Where: Archer Hall in Allendale When: May 15th Time: 5:00 pm Bands: The #12 Looks Like You, The Escape Engine, Albert React, Knife the Glitter, Heartwork buy a ticket from tj, ev, matt, brian, or ed  $10.00....or 8 at the door....... ALSO Where: Club Krome, South Amboy When: May 22nd Time: 2:00 pm Bands: A Winter's Rose, A Dying Declaration, Garbage Warriors, Hydrus, Within Arms Reach, Heartwork go to the site for diderction www.heartworknj.cjb.net if i die

[06 May 2004|09:43pm] hey well today wasnt bad for the mast part.....um school was gay like always...... i told matt all my feelings and how i feel about certain things he does......he was glad i told him everything....and im glad i did too..... so yeah....then matt came home with me on the bus......then we just hungout....we went swimming :) oh how gay.......   and tomorrow im haning out with aj and a bunch of people YAY! im excited!! ok later....... nik 1 won’t be so close to me | if i die

[05 May 2004|09:17pm] yesterday was alright......um cut my hair..i like it actually......so yeah.....school = gay........me and matt hungout all day.....it was ok..... and today..school.....then work...then matts mom picked me up.....then matts for like .5 seconds...then my mom picked me up...um now im home.....yeah cool matt really must hate to cal me to tell me where he is......fuck this im going to sleep....to end on a good note it rained a whole lot....it was awesome....and i got optimum.....fucking awesome......and the o.c is on.......wow ok im in a good mood now that i think of it......later..... nik 1 won’t be so close to me | if i die

[03 May 2004|10:51am] so yeah yesterday was a bitch......concidering i woke up at 3!!! so yeah went to work....then i picked up matt and we fucking sat at my aunts house for 578204607268 hours....and talked to my fucking burnt out kinda aunt........so yeah that was interesting......then matt went home.and i sat home all night....wow my weekend was fucking great...yeah NOT..... but i didnt have to go to school today :).......so i slept till like 10:45......yeah my days not going to be to exciting....but thats ok its better than school......later.. nik 2 won’t be so close to me | if i die

[02 May 2004|03:28am] hey well its def 3:30 in the morning......wide awake.... well today was pretty gay.....um work from 8-2.....then matt picked me up....then i showered and such...then we went to his g-mas.....and then me and his mom went to ikea :)........but thats ok because i love ikea.......um then we went back to matts....then i went home.....not a real exciting day but thats ok...... im bitching about stuff: so yeah matt never called me back before.....i def said matt call me back im so upset i really just want to talk to you.....um yeah no phone call........and i really hope he dosnt foget my shirt.....because without my D+D shirt....I CANT WORK....ugggghhhh....im so not sleeping.....THIS SUCKS......i def want to just cry all over the floor.........oh wait i already did that.:)wow im def PMSing.... later...... nik 1 won’t be so close to me | if i die

[01 May 2004|06:57am] hey i have to say yesterday was one of the best days ive had in a while..... school=sucks.....um then afterschool lauren came over.....we played field hockey....um you matt if you read this- THANKS FOR TEACHING MY LITTLE SISTER HOW TO LIGHT A MATCH.....all she wants to fucking do is light things on fire now!!!!!!lol.....shell prob ask me if she can light me on fire.......lol.....but yeah twas fun.......then me and lauren going mani/pedi-cures.......yup yup.....haha then we saw mr lenard when we were picking up my sister from teen night.....eeeek.... and for today um going to work........then at 2 (if matt dosnt forget) hes going to pick me up.....and were going to hangout....then idk.......so yeah i have to leave now.....later..... nik if i die

::im sick of smiling:: [29 Apr 2004|08:19pm] yeah today was pretty good...for the most part..... um school=sucks....then matt came over....um we went for a walk.....and we did some other non-sexual stuff AND IT WAS ACTUALLY ALOT OF FUN.....idk he was being all cute and nice...and it was just so good....lol....so yeah....im STARVING because of this stupid diet.....:(....fucking sucks man....... yeah i def think theres something wrong with me.....like i know most people bitch about being fat......but thats the only thing that comes out of my mouth....and if anyone reads this IM SORRY.....i really cant help it......like it just comes out....like my brian will want my mouth to say oh i like your shirt.....but my mouth will just say im fat......wow it feels like 8th grade all over.....fucking gay......later.... nik if i die

[28 Apr 2004|08:16pm] i dont even remember what i did yesterday...WTF?!?!lol...well prob hungout with matt....nothing new..... um today wasnt so good.....def wanted to cry all day...and then finally 5th block i just fucking fell apart.......i like ran to the bathroom with kimmy...and to make it worse matt was in the hall...and hes like ah wtf is wrong with you.....and manda was in the bathroom and shes like ah wtf is wrong with you.....and idk for some reaon i just kept crying.....it was weird......everyone just pissed me off.......well yeah thats it.... 1 more day till everyone BUT ME get to see SoCo :(....ugh so pissed....later nik 3 won’t be so close to me | if i die

:: [26 Apr 2004|07:50pm] hey well havnt updated since thursday....not like my life is that exciting...... um friday.....went to school......came home...went to the mall with my mom my sister and matt <3......um then yup that was it..... saturday...worked 8-2 ugh...what a pain in the bitch......haha that sounds funny....um then went home showered and such....then hungout at matts for a bit......then he came back to my house till like 12:30.....um we watched haunted mansion....but i feel asleep as soon as i sat down....and then my mom watched wild boys with matt.....haha i find that funny...so yeah.... saturday...worked from 7-2....wow wait a pain in the vag......um then went to my g-mas b/c it was her b-day.....then yeah that was it..... um today was eh so so.....1/2 day = good......um my mom picked up me and matt....went to weight watchers b/c im fat...um but i couldnt sign up b/c i didnt have a drs note or some shit....so i yelled at the lady......and then i tried to sign up online....and it wouldnt let me till im 18.......and then i emoed...but meg made me feel alot better....thanks meg so much......because im juat a fat kid trying to lose some weight!!!! haha......um then me and matt came back here.....then we went to the shop....and then i came home...... im kinda bumed im not going to see SoCo because they have been my fav band for a long time now......*sigh*......like if there going be one thing that would make me feel better it would be to go to that show.....but of well :).... i told you my life is SO interesting......later...... nik if i die

[22 Apr 2004|07:12pm] hmm this might be a long update...but maybe not..... well yesterday was good....um went to school...came home...went to work....then matt picked me up and we went back to his house.....um we have been going out for 5 months...... then today was ok i guess....um went to school....came home....went to work....it was ok i guess......i kept messing up.....i was so frustrated......but yeah....then hubert stopped in to rub it in my face on how he got his liscense....congrats!.....then my dad came in and....then i went home...... hmmm its really cool how my boyfriend DOES NOT pick up his phone.....wow it makes me so mad...MATT IF YOU READ THIS IM SORRY.....i guess its really stupid to get mad over dumb things...but idk i dont talk to him all day and i just called to say hi....but all you get is the machine or it keeps rining.....but brian told me hes at the eye doctors....so im not mad mad......but you know.....i know im wrong for getting mad...im just dumb what can i say..... And I've waited here for hours Hoping that you'd call My dialing fingers tired Your machine is full And I've taken eighteen showers Just to pass the time And that fucking phone just rang but it wasn't you on the line And you don't seem to mind you know how girls have there little groups and they call them there girls.....i dont have a group of friends that i call the girls.....i guess im kinda like a loner? but not......like idk i hangout with alot of different people......the only person who i dont get sick of is manda.....well i get sick of her and trust me i do.......but we fight like sisters were just kinda like well fucking you...and then were ok....lol but yeah..... i really miss cali and everyone thats there.....its just so different.....i hate it here....i mean dont get me wrong......i would def miss everyone....but you know.....just this town isnt for me......like in cali.....week days would be like my normal weekends here....and my weekends would be fucking amazing......you could walk to places....there so much more to do.....im sure if i lived there again i would get bored of it...but right now its what i want.....ugh i just want to surf......... mother fucker im bored....later.... nik 3 won’t be so close to me | if i die

[20 Apr 2004|08:30pm] hey well today was another good....yet long day.....went to school.....came home....went to dunkin donuts to start training.....i was a little scared...but once i got the hang of it, it was pretty easy......i didnt spill anything or mess up anything!! well only once...but thats ok....um bri stopped by and got an application and such.....um then i went to go visit matt.....and he was being all cute....wow i love that boy....lol....OMG HE DIDNT WEAR HIS SENSES FAIL HOODIE TODAY!!! it was AMAZING!!!lol....but yeah anyway back to my day....ok you know what i dont understand? my sister got a cell phone for her birth day...and everytime i tried to call it its been off....WHATS THE POINT OF HAVING A CELL PHONE IF ITS NOT ON!?!?!?! lol ok but yeah.....then i came home...and went running....so now im tired....im gunna shower and go to sleep...i have another long day tomorrow as well.....later... nik 2 won’t be so close to me | if i die

:: i miss cali:: [19 Apr 2004|07:58pm] hey well im finally not in a bad/pissy/depressed mood......things are actually going good.....matts been really nice to me...:)....it helps alot when the one you love is nice back....idk for a while i felt kinda gr twards him.....but yeah now everythings good....and when i really think about it i do really love the kid......he means alot to me....despite the fact that all i do is bitch about it...its just because i care about him though.....im getting tan....its so freaking nice out....fucking 90 deegrese out!!!! oh it was SO nice today.......went to the nutritonist today......went very well....im gunna lose a bunch of weight.......im determined.....my mom said i can join the gym/kickboxing...so im gunna sign up tomorrow prob...or see whats going on......i finally got my working papers signed and such.....so i start training at dunkin donuts tomorrow....wish me luck...im kind of scared.....im going to a show soon...Me Anna Lauren+ lockhaven+ sleeping over+ DASHBOARD= fucking awesome!!!! def cant wait......i hope i dont have to work.......ill just tell him i made plans....well maybe......but yeah its going to be amazing!!!   so yeah concidering today was school and all......waking up was the only bad part.........matt was really cute/nice today...i liked it......then i came home.....then went to the nutritonist.......then that was about it.......so yeah.......its def field hockey weather!!! im gunna go hit the ball around....later..... nik 1 won’t be so close to me | if i die

[18 Apr 2004|06:55pm] [ mood | confused ] so yeah today was interesting......matts mom called me because once again she didnt know where matt was......yet neither did i....i love when i dont know where my boyfriend lol yeah NOT.......then at 1 i went to mandas...and we took another 6 mile bike ride to shepards lake....and my WHOLE family was there for my sisters birth day party thingy......um then we rode are bikes back to mandas....then i went home....um talked to matt....said we were going to hangout tonight...but were not because hes to busy playing video games COOL.....and my family came back to our house....and that was about my whole day......what a great last day of spring break....yeah NOT....eh oh well....then i talked on the phone with brian for a bit.......haha we had a good conversation.....it was greeat......and lex might come over in a bit....it depends what time she gets done packing.....awesome......   ... nik 2 won’t be so close to me | if i die

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